Darker Blue

Latter Days

2012-02-15T08:35:00.001+02:00

A beautiful BL movie. I am familiar with LDS religion, so this movie was extra interesting for me :D I love the ending.

Here is the full movie, though there is a sound problem.

Curiosity of Chance

2012-02-12T15:40:00.000+02:00

Funny BL movie! :D I love it!

Right by Me

2012-02-09T09:35:00.001+02:00

Thai Boys Love Movie. Don't expect much from the movie quality (music or sub-actors), but the story is nice. Download is available here.
First part:

Don't get tricked

2012-02-08T16:56:00.000+02:00

Endou-kun no Kansetsu Nikki

2012-02-08T16:35:00.002+02:00

Nice story. Lots of ba-dump moments ! Thanks EA ^^
Read here

BL Short Movies

2012-02-06T12:58:00.001+02:00

I don't want to go back alone (cute!~)

Subs: (Thanks EA :)

The Postcard (Sad ending but I like the story)

Hachi one Diver

2012-02-03T15:48:00.000+02:00

It is a J-drama about Shogi game. It is funny and absorbing. It is about a man who devotes himself playing Shogi. On his way toward becoming a pro, he was beaten, and then started playing Shogi as a gambling. He faces a strong challenger in Akihabara :D

Camino

2012-01-30T10:52:00.000+02:00

Separate Time

Crimson Mark - Korean BL Short Movie

2012-01-30T09:29:00.002+02:00

It is a historical Korean BL~! :D Nice one

Ren Ai Shindan Tsubasa no Kakera

2012-01-26T10:00:00.000+02:00

A bit sad, but nice BL. 3 episodes. Available at youtube.

Boy Meets Boy

2012-01-26T09:59:00.001+02:00

Boy Meets Boy - Short BL Movie - Cute~

Darling ... so sweet :D

2012-01-25T11:17:00.000+02:00

Sweet love :D Here is the link. Thank you EA! ^^

Pressure....

2012-01-24T14:11:00.001+02:00

My supervisor talked me out of quiting my admin job... His offer is: I will keep doing my job, but he will reduce my work load to half and will give me two days off. I guess it is ok this way... especially considering that I really feel bad about quiting half way...

I watched some J-drama yesterday while I had tons of work to do. This is what happens when I feel too much pressure *sigh* They are very motivating and good dramas. Both of them are about Baseball.

Dream Again

Rookies

Zangetsu - Gintama version

2012-01-17T12:58:00.000+02:00

If you know about Bleach's Zangetsu, you will love this episode XD

Self-Reflection: My New Mentor

2012-01-17T11:01:00.002+02:00

Yesterday I was assigned to a mentor. He is a very fun and a crazy professor in the field of Engineering. Very nice and considerate. Still, I wonder if he would understand me and offer suggestions suitable to me. Then again, since I started working I couldn't progress at all. Maybe it is good that he push me in a different direction.

I chose to do my administrational work because I wanted to contribute to the department I graduated from, and I wanted to help the students. Lots of students and faculty tell me that since I started working, the department's atmosphere has been warmer and their work is getting done quicker. It is because I give priority to helping others than helping myself.

But yesterday, my mentor hit the spot: "To help others, you need to improve yourself first. If you become good at research and get projects, you can help your department much more than you do now"...Then he asked me to quit my admin duties. I was planning to quit it in 4 months, because I promised that way...but I have mixed feelings now. I can't understand my superiors anymore. Maybe I don't trust them as much as I did. Sometimes I feel really being used.

My heart tells me to do my best but also to keep my promise. I will probably go to that route.

Shelter (2007) BL Movie

2012-01-17T10:15:00.000+02:00

Very nice BL movie. It made me question about my choices... is it ok to be selfish sometimes? Isn't it better to take care of others? Or are you just running away? I remembered Amelie movie's quote:
Amélie: Maybe she tries hard to fix other people's messy lives.
Raymond Dufayel: What about her? Her own messy life? Who'll fix that? Amélie: It's better to help people than a garden gnome.

High School Debut - (Koukou Debut) Movie

2012-01-16T16:18:00.004+02:00

This is the movie version of a shojo-manga I like. I rarely laugh while watching, but this movie made me laugh so many times! XD In junior high Haruna did her best playing softball, but in high school she decided to do her best to find a boyfriend. Then, she convinces popular Yoh to be her coach. One condition: She can't fall in love with him ^^

Kimi ni Todoke - Movie

2012-01-16T15:38:00.000+02:00

A very nice shojo drama. I have seen its anime version before, it was cute. I like how innocent the main characters are. In the story, everyone thinks of Ring movie's scary girl character when they see Sawako, and get scared. But slowly people get to know her beautiful character.

Kids (2008)

2012-01-15T11:29:00.005+02:00

First off, this is not shonen-ai. It is a beautiful story about the friendship between Asato and Takeo. It has an interesting theme. Asato takes others' pain ... literally. Hiroshi Tamaki (from Nodame Cantabile) acts as a very rough guy this time :D I admire Asato so much...

Bus Gamer

2012-01-14T16:52:00.000+02:00

I like this anime, it is just a little bit shonen-ai. Among three teammates, I think only Toki (one below) is interested in guys :D

What happens if a straight guy is forced to read BL manga by his girlfriend?

2012-01-13T19:09:00.001+02:00

Watch:
Oniichan no Koto Nanka Zenzen Suki Janain Dakara ne— Episode 6
Funny XD

Koutetsu Sangokushi - Shonen-ai

2012-01-13T08:34:00.006+02:00

Light and Darkness - Ending of Koutetsu Sangokushi struck me! Nice one.

Opening: "Nostalgia" by Camino

Ending:"Kuon" by Miyano Mamoru

Saint Beasts

2012-01-07T11:15:00.000+02:00

It is a shonen-ai anime (will touch but won't kiss type :D). Angels in pairs with special powers try to obey the orders of Zeus (their God) who is treating angels a bit harsh. In this anime, Lucifer seemed very cool.

Judah: Will everything be solved by sending away those angels who don't fit? Where would the anger and the sadness of those who are sent to the forest of darkness head to? (ep. 11)

Aarinfantasy Host Page - Yaoi, Shonen-ai, and Slashable

2012-01-02T15:41:00.009+02:00

I have found this great goldmine. I don't know why I haven't found this page before :) http://aarinfantasy.com/forum/f55/ It requires free membership to see the page and download. But it is no problem.

The animes I knew
After School in the Teacher's Lounge
Ai no Kusabi
Angel's Feather
Antique Bakery
Araiso Private High School Student Council Executive Committee
Beboy Kidnappin' Idol
Boku no Pico/Pico to Chico/Pico-coco-chico
Boku no Sexual Harassment
Boku wa Konomana Kaeranai (Our Road of No Return)
Cathexis
Close the last door
Earthian
Enzai
Fake
Fish in the Trap
Fujimi Orchestra
Gakuen Heaven
Haru wo Daiteita
Ikoku Irokoi Romantan
Junjou Romantica
Kachou no Koi
Kaikan Phrase (Slashable)
Kasho no Tsuki
Kaze to Ki no Uta
Kirepapa
Kizuna
Koisuru Boukun
Koutetsu Sangokushi
Kusatta Kyoushi no Houteishiki
Legend of Blue Wolves
Lesson XX
Level C
Loveless
Maiden Rose
Marginal Prince
Mirage of Blaze
Okane Ga Nai
Papa to kiss in the dark
Princess Princess
Ryokohunohara Labyrinth
Seikimatsu Darling
Seitokaichou ni Chuukoku
Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi
Sensitive Pornograph
Sex Pistols
Shonen Maid Kuro-kun
Sukisyo (Sukisho)
Togainu no Chi
Uragiri wa Boku no Namae o Shitteiru
Winter Cicada
Yami no Matsuei
Yebisu Celebrities
Zetsuai & Bronze

Never Watched Before (my comments)
Dash! (nice!)
Gokujyo no Koibito (nice!)
Graduation M (boring)
Kimera (ok)
Kono Danshi, Uchuujin to Tatakaemasu (ok)
Meine Liebe (It is not shonen-ai/ Slashable- ok)
Otona ni Natte mo (nice!)
Patalliro Saiyuki (?)
Reflection of The Crescent Moon (?)
Saint Beast, and OVA (nice!)
Suteki na Shota Days 2 - Saigo no Sangatsu (yaoi- sad ending)
The Door Into Summer (I didn't like it)
Tokyo Babylon (ok- not much BL action)

Also I have the following ones
Bus Gamer
Gravitation
Switch

Sekai-Ichi Ended

2011-12-28T16:06:00.002+02:00

I liked the last episode, about Takano's first love story :D

Sekai ichi Hatsukoi reached 22th episode without confession!

2011-12-14T09:52:00.005+02:00

It is a great shonen-ai anime, I know. But I got so angry when Ukes in this anime are so inconsiderate! Come on Ritsu! It is the 22th episode, confess already!!!! (Oh, I remember writing this in my blog for Misaki too)

There is an episode of Isaka X Asahina that I love very much. It is based on manga called Junjou Mistake. (Episode 18).

(pict. from aarinfantasy)

Self-reflection and decisions regarding work

2011-12-08T11:14:00.001+02:00

Lately I was a bit unhappy with my work. Academic goals such as publishing more articles, getting a grant, and so forth seemed a bit meaningless to me.

Then I realized a way to be happy. Something very simple, but not very easy to let go for. Because we usually focus on results. What is more important for me should not be the goal itself, but the quality of effort, perseverence, patience at what I do. When I come home from work I am only happy if I worked hard. My new goal is to work hard and improve my endurance. As long as I work hard, no matter what results I get, I can be happy. Of course I set up some goals to reach, but for me they are not actual goals. Goals became the means, while the means became my goals.

Small efforts can match up with large ones when these small efforts are continious, persistent. I like the analogy of constant waterdrops breaking rocks. I believe my happiness in my work lies in this principle. My fear of losing my patience in the process is actually helping me to continue my constant efforts.

By the way, I decided to resign from my administrative duties in a few months. I plan to dedicate myself to my actual work.

Cute Yaoi Mangas

2011-12-08T10:12:00.002+02:00

Master
Rough Boyfriend
Ijiwaru na Kuchibiru

Thank you Angela :D

Snow Patrol - Called out in the dark

2011-12-01T13:46:00.002+02:00

The song I like these days...

Fan Art

2011-11-24T13:57:00.003+02:00

Best yaoi-informant Angela's suggestion: link to drawings : Artist: Lehanan

H2-Kimi to Itahibi

2011-11-23T15:03:00.000+02:00

I didn't know that there was another nice drama about baseball. It is based on the manga with the same name.

:D

2011-11-21T14:25:00.001+02:00

Battery

2011-11-21T13:51:00.000+02:00

Nice Japanese Drama about the friendship of a pitcher and a catcher. It is not shonen-ai, but their relationship is very sweet :D
http://www.mysoju.com/japanese-drama/battery/

Keep Practicing

2011-11-20T19:21:00.004+02:00

Sena: I am not as good as you, Shin-san. Neither my stamina, nor my spirit...

Shin: It's the burden to win the game. The belief of "I must never lose", "I must do this all by myself, not relying on others". The unavoidable distress.

Sena: How did you get over it then?

Shin: Keep practicing. In order to own a body and mind to resist the burden, you have to gain confidence and stamina through tough training. That is the only way.

(Eyeshield 21)

Two more sports animes!

2011-11-20T19:09:00.002+02:00

Here are two more sports animes that I watched. They are nice and exciting.

Dan Doh!!: Golf
The storyline of this anime is more suited to age 13 and younger. But I still enjoyed it :D

Buzzer Beater: Basketball
For this anime, assume that the monsters are American players. Then, it will make lots of sense :D

Takahiro Sakurai - My dear Demon

2011-11-17T11:47:00.000+02:00

Here is the Seiyu of my favorite demons! :D

Nice Sports Anime: Cross Game (Baseball)

2011-11-09T19:15:00.000+02:00

I love sports animes with rivals! This anime has a nice couple :D Unfortunately it is not shonen-ai, but it is still a nice (normal) romantic comedy. Link to download the anime

Nice J-Rock Songs

2011-10-27T15:43:00.000+03:00

Today I was searching for J-rock songs to download. They are great while running :) I like most of the songs in this video. Enjoy :D

1. Alice Nine - Mirror Ball 2. BIS - Days 3. D'espairsRay - Squall 4. Duel Jewel - Aishuu Melankolia 5. Janne Da Arc - Mobius 6. Kelun - Rain Drop Street 7. L'Arc~en~Ciel - My Heart Draws a Dream 8. SID - Chapter 1 9. Vidoll - Cloud 10. 12012 - Last Time

Seriously?

2011-10-27T15:15:00.006+03:00

Oh my oh my... Are they really men?... or I should better ask: are they real? XD Looks like they come out from an anime :D

Love Necoco - Cute~

2011-10-27T10:08:00.000+03:00

Link to manga

Sad Ending

2011-10-24T13:12:00.000+03:00

Mangwa name: Happy Ending
Don't be fooled with the name! ;D

Wild Darling

2011-10-24T13:09:00.000+03:00

Link to Manga

Angela's another great suggestion!

Got silver medal

2011-10-24T13:00:00.000+03:00

In the race I got 2nd place and got silver medal in my age category. But actually I was about 20th in the whole race. Sometimes being in the older age group has its advantages :)

It was a great event. I enjoyed going there with a group. The race was around the lake and had a great view. Although I sometimes felt out of place (because the group was composed of 19-20 year-olds) it was still lots of fun.

The madal gives me some motivation to do better next time. I will train myself better and hopefully get 1st place next year!

Yann Tiersen - Le Matin

2011-10-24T10:41:00.000+03:00

Beautiful song.. Angela's suggestion

Uraboku Manga

2011-10-18T10:27:00.000+03:00

I started reading Uraboku manga. My first reaction was "Anime is better!" But in the manga there are some extra information that is not in the anime. So I am planning to continue reading :) Here is the link.

Orienteering

2011-10-13T13:46:00.011+03:00

I have joined my university's Orienteering training program.

"Orienteering is a family of sports that requires navigational skills using a map and compass to navigate from point to point in diverse and usually unfamiliar terrain, and normally moving at speed." (Wikipedia)

The training involves 1 hour of running outside and 1 hour of workout, 3 times a week. The first time was great! I kept smiling with happiness and excitement while running outside with others. We ran about 8 miles nonstop. Then we did exercises together in small groups.

This week they are going to teach us navigation skills, which is one of my weakest skills. I can't wait for the next training tonight! XD

Update: I got18th among 31 people in the race. I think it is still a good result for my first race! Especially considering that there were several old-timers participating in it too.

Love birds! :D

2011-10-11T11:05:00.000+03:00

Shiro X Kuro

2011-10-11T10:49:00.001+03:00

"One love"... a cute one-shot manga :D

Want to change...

2011-10-11T09:53:00.002+03:00

These days I lack motivation to do anything... I can't follow even the easiest plans or goals. It is not a very serious problem yet, but it seems dangeous in the long run. I want to change myself... but I don't feel any strength in my heart.

I want to be like a big wave...born then die...then born again... with patience and strength...

Marlon Roudette - New Age

2011-10-02T15:02:00.000+03:00

New Age... Nice 2011 song... makes me relaxed..

Bakuman

2011-10-02T14:10:00.002+03:00

It is a shonen manga about two middle-school boys trying to become mangaka together. One is writing the story, the other one is drawing. It is interesting that the actual mangaka is also a team, one is writing the other one is drawing :D

Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi Season 2 is coming out in October!

2011-09-29T11:08:00.000+03:00

Aarinfantasy news:
Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi Season 2 is coming out in October!

Episode 12.5 is also out XD

Hated by the People I Love

2011-09-28T10:42:00.001+03:00

Lately the university personnel is making lots of mistakes which increase my mistakes too. Maybe I am just being too self-conscious but I feel hated by students and faculty. I thought they might prefer someone else to do it but the truth is nobody wants to have this administrative side job (too much work, no reward)

I think, if I quit this side job, a newbie will do the same amount of mistakes or even more and he/she will be the one who is hated. It looks like, every department has to have that one person who is able to hold up all the negative energy. Someone who can be blamed...

I am not passively accepting it and I inform the authorities about the problems they cause. But I also feel like, rather than getting angry at them and quiting it, rather than not willing to help the department or the students, I prefer to be the hated person. I seriously love my students and I will endure as much as I can...But I never thought being disliked by the people you love/care hurts this much.

*sigh* I guess I am reading too much unrequited love stories XD

Falling for a Straight Guy...

2011-09-26T10:26:00.002+03:00

While reading Doushitemo Furetakunai, I thought, straight guys must have a different appeal to gays :)

Never Give Up!

2011-09-23T11:34:00.000+03:00

"Ball always ends up in front of the person who never gives up"

Sekai to Sera (Anime: Giant Killing)

Caught cold...

2011-09-22T13:16:00.001+03:00

I got sick after working too hard under stresss... From a philosophical point of view my father once said "Getting sick is a good thing. This is the way body repays for you". It is hard to explain his words here, but basically he is saying, having such troubles are good for me to improve my patience and endurance.

All I need is a demon...

2011-09-20T10:09:00.000+03:00

These days I am working hard... I feel like I am the Sacrifice in the department, required to do stuff nobody wants to do. It really makes me mad! My boss joked, "soon you will grow angel wings"... and I replied "Yes, but they will be black".

If only I had a demon like Luka... Life would have been easier :D

Who can resist?! Luka Crosszeria

2011-09-19T21:08:00.001+03:00

Giant Killing

2011-09-13T09:20:00.000+03:00

Another great Sports Anime! It is about Soccer, but I like it mostly because it gives me courage and determination after watching Tsubaki. He is very cute and very inspirational.

Their Coach

Why do I like Australia!

2011-09-13T09:12:00.000+03:00

1. Meditation Society of Australia
2. Dr. Barbara Kamler (I like reading her stuff)
3. Ocean

Congratulations Sou! XD

Shojo Anime? Pfft

2011-09-09T09:51:00.001+03:00

First episodes about formation of the band story were great. Then, there was this love development between a cool vocalist guy and a song-writer high school girl. I realized that I am not into normal shojo love at all.

Yuki was my favorite.

There was only one scene which got my heart beat: The joke Towa made. I don't think he was kidding though XD

Devil vs. Cutie Pitcher

2011-09-07T10:02:00.001+03:00

Anime: One Outs -Devil Pitcher: Toua Tokuchi

Anime: Ookiku Furikabutte -- Kawai Pitcher: Ren Mihashi

Major

2011-09-05T15:34:00.001+03:00

Major is another great Sports Anime! Personally, I had no interest in baseball and 6 seasons seemed too much to watch...but I could not stop watching it once I started and now my vacation is over LOL (typical of me)

Slash Machine - From EA

2011-08-25T13:13:00.003+03:00

Soulmate

2011-08-25T09:44:00.001+03:00

Recently I am thinking about "soulmates". When I watch Uraboku or Loveless I feel such wonderful sweetness, calmness, and love in my heart. Love someone unconditionally and being loved unconditionally... because your hearts and souls have been connected before you even born.

I am in love with Hijikata Toshi (From Gintama)

2011-08-24T08:55:00.001+03:00

Lately I realized that I really like Toshi! He is straight, though in my yaoi imagination everything is possible. All he needs is a cute, beautiful, and very strong uke! ^^

Stupid me!

2011-08-24T08:44:00.000+03:00

Such a cute, yaoi-material guy asked me:
"Would you like to play together?" (Tennis ;))
and I said, "Sorry, I have a lesson in 5 minutes"

BAKA!!!!!!!

Summer is Over...

2011-08-19T09:57:00.011+03:00

Home: I bought an apartment with mortgage about 4 months ago with my family's financial help. It is great to live alone after a hard-work day. But lately it has been an oasis for my sister and parents. I sometimes wonder, what is the good for "moving out" if everyone is "coming in" :D

Sport: The most enjoyable thing in my life right now! I love running and tennis a lot.

My latest running statistics:

Distance: 10 Km

Duration: 1 h 8 min

(1 h 20 min -including rest)

Speed: 8.8 km/h

(7.5 km/h - including rest)

I think I got pretty good with tennis too. My new tennis partners cannot catch up with me XD

Anime/Manga

I want to watch something new! I wonder if there are some new sports animes coming up. By the time being, I watch Gintama! XD

Work: September is coming up again. This means tons of course-work and tons of administrative duties. Also I am supposed to write grant-proposals but I have no motivation or self-confidence to do so.

Music: I got my fathers' old radio (I think it is about 30 years old, but still working XD) and play it every morning while I do my morning exercises. It improves my mood a lot.

Oh, B'z and UverWorld have their new albums. Here are the links:

http://www.mediafire.com/?813g627qs66tj5h

http://www.mediafire.com/?vwc6k2e4oraj55h

J-Rock is best for running! XD

Gackt and Yoshiki - Leeca

2011-08-18T11:06:00.001+03:00

Love this song...

Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi - Kisa and Kou in Manga

2011-08-17T09:56:00.000+03:00

Final episode of Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi is out (aarinfantasy.com). I think it is still the best to read the manga. There are lots of great scenes and stories about Kisa and Kou in it. Here are the linksto read about their story:

Part1

Part2

Part3

Togainu no Chi

2011-08-10T10:58:00.004+03:00

Dont expect any yaoi action in this anime. But there are lots of nice boys-love scenes in the game!

A nice website for YAOI game images.

Maurice

2011-08-08T10:00:00.000+03:00

It is not Japanese but still one of my favorite boys-love movies. I especially like the second half, the relationship between Maurice and Alec.

Uraboku

2011-07-15T09:44:00.001+03:00

Beautiful characters and a nice story. They did not label this anime as Shonen-ai. But, it definitely is! XD

I have downloaded it from here

5 Stages in Yaoi XD

2011-07-15T09:29:00.001+03:00

EA made my day with this funny video XD

5 Stages in Yaoi: Introduction, Development, Turning Point, Conclusion, AND Darkness XD

Link to download Animes

2011-07-12T15:21:00.000+03:00

Another great website to download animes quickly. It uses Mediafire, so it is very fast.
http://duniaanimasi-ku.blogspot.com/p/anime-episode.html

Korean Shonen-ai: Running on Empty

2011-07-08T13:27:00.000+03:00

This is a Korean Manga that EA suggested. I like the story. Though I wished the ending was a bit longer. Well, I wish this for all the good stories :) *Read it from left to right!*

Download here

YaoiOtaku Website

2011-07-08T09:43:00.002+03:00

Nice website for all YaoiOtaku's like me :)
http://www.yaoiotaku.com/yaoi-manga.html

Starfighter

2011-07-07T16:24:00.001+03:00

This is a very explicit Yaoi comic that Sou suggested to me. In Chapter 2 story is coming along nicely :)
(Read it from left to right). http://www.starfightercomic.com/

Do not read if you don't like too much yaoi action! ;)

Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi ---Junjou Romantica continues (kind of :))

2011-06-07T08:42:00.002+03:00

Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi is kind of Season 3 for Junjou Romantica. There are 9 episodes so far and still continues. I think it is very cute and sweet.

All three couples (my favorite couple is in episodes 8 and 9) are in the editorial work. In JR they were in the literature field. This makes me laugh thinking that, this line of work may attract yaoi lovers :D. Here are some screenshots that I got from aarinfantasy.

PodRunner

2011-02-28T12:59:00.000+02:00

Good running music combined with the touch of a trainer. I just started Intervals: Gateway to 8K. Working great so far!
http://www.podrunner.com/

New Yaoi Anime: Koisuru Boukun: The tyrant falls in love

2011-01-14T07:52:00.000+02:00

Junjou!

2010-12-08T20:20:00.000+02:00

Random Pictures from animepaper.net

2010-12-08T20:19:00.000+02:00

New Yaoi Anime: Sex Pistols

2010-11-09T10:48:00.000+02:00

It is not complete, but you can find its manga to read what happens next.

More responsibility = More opportunities to improve

2010-09-26T13:31:00.001+03:00

I have been given more responsibility and a upper-level position in the department. I accepted it, even though I knew that, this responsibility will take away all my free time. It has been a week and I already feel the transformation in me. I am sure that this experience will empower me. This following 3 years will be very hard, but I will do my best. I realized that I should follow my heart&mind for whatever happens. I will be honest to myself and others, and do the right actions, eventhough some people will go against me.

My blog friends: Eventhough I will be very very busy, I will still keep posting on this blog, but maybe once a month. I will do my best to visit your blogs and keep up with what is going on with your lives, new animes, dramas, mangas, and movies! (my only source of entertainment :)) So, please keep posting on your blogs and I will do my best to catch up! :D Love you all!

Nature Photos

2010-09-14T08:51:00.004+03:00

These are the nature-photos I took when I was visiting my relatives last week. Now I am back and getting everything on-track again :)

Traveling

2010-09-06T21:30:00.000+03:00

I realized... More than anything I fear of changing my plans... I fear that I will lose control of my life when I travel for a few days...Silly silly...

Tomorrow is the big day. I am driving long distance with my family again to see my relatives. Good luck me!

(This is the photo I took from the high speed train a week ago)

Weight Loss--Finally!

2010-08-26T16:18:00.003+03:00

I had thought that I had reached my final weight because I was not losing much anymore. But in August I started a new plan and I lost another 2 kg (4.4 pounds). I am still losing! YAY!

Here is what I did:

1. Eating less, of course. Lots of fresh veggies like carrots, cucumbers, tomatoes. Included Omega fats in my diet that increases my good cholestrol, like fish, nuts, olives, olive oil (thank you Vikki!). No dark meat, sometimes chicken, but mostly fish.

2. Started doing 10 minute Pilates every morning. Continued running 2 times a week, tennis once a week.

3. Doing meditation everyday to increase my self-confidence and my ego's dependence on things.

I guess it is hard to accomplish something when there is a problem within the body-mind-spirit triangle. I will work hard to keep the balance! :D

Progress Continues... One Stone At a Time

2010-08-23T12:24:00.000+03:00

My grandfather once suggested, "Whenever you are angry at something, be patient, endure it, and put one stone. One day these stones will build up bit by bit, becomes so high. It will become a wall. Then you will not get affected by anything"

In the meditation exercises, it says the best way to deal with anger is ACTION, doing something, and transforming anger into something positive. If you repress it, it will eat you inside.

I decided to physically do what my grandfather told me. Everytime I endure a stressful event, everytime I conquer my anger, I will add one stone into a box and then I will stop thinking about it. This will be a way of transforming negatives into positives--> toward self-confidence.

Largest Online Library of Free Meditation & Ambient & Chill out Music

2010-08-18T14:57:00.002+03:00

This is an awesome source! http://mp3forum.ru/lofiversion/index.php/t56681-3000.html
It seduces me to download all the relaxation music XD

If you want to listen only one of them, my suggestion is "Spirits of Nature", all 6 cds. -- (at the first quarter of the page).

Rush of Anger

2010-08-12T09:27:00.000+03:00

I have been meditating for two weeks and I was very happy, relaxed, and loving. I was feeling very confident and strong. Then something happened and I lost myself to my anger.

I have been waiting for faculty housing for 1.5 years, but a colleague of mine might get housing in just a week, because she has good connections (I am happy for her by the way). She told me that, they considered my application when they were approving hers. I think it is because we are in the same department, and it will look bad if they accept hers but no mine.

I couldn't deal with my anger and called my dad, and he said "get used to inequalities in the society, favoritism, and all the dirty stuff in the workplace. When you get a higher position in the society, then you can solve these problems".

It is a big question mark in my heart. What should I do when people take advantage of me, or when they treat me unequally? One side of me says, "fight, get angry, go to their room and shout!".The other side says, be patient, take action slowly, talk to the responsible people calmly with no anger.

My grandfather once said "there are different ways to protect yourself. One way is to be patient and loving eventhough they hurt you and hate you.". I truly respect him and I believe in his words. But I cannot subside my anger quickly to react calmly.

I realized, the fire in my heart has the potential to burn up everything so fast and so easily (confidence, love, patience, gratitude, happiness). This scares me...

Another Shonen-ai Movie- Itsuka no Kimi e

2010-08-12T08:22:00.000+03:00

I like the characters and the story ^^ Hayase and Noboru are photography students. Noboru is very introverted but he has a twin brother Ryu with complete opposite personality. Hayase started to get interested in Noboru especially after he saves his life.

There is no Yaoi action in this movie, only one cute kissing scene XD

You can download it from here: http://mesmerisz.livejournal.com/45125.html

Nodame Cantabile Music Downloads

2010-08-06T09:08:00.000+03:00

Orchestra Music: http://www.megaupload.com/fr/?d=LLFXSUW8
(Reference: From this blog). Also, all other anime soundtracks: here

Summer!

2010-08-05T10:03:00.000+03:00

It is summer time! Super hot! The summer school is over, but I still have to be in my office, working. Since there is not much to do, I am just fooling around... for a week :)

Vacation: I wonder why I don't like summer vacations, like going to the beach, get burn or stuff like that. I seriously don't like it. I like earth, walking, mountains, rocks, trees! Even if I had all-expense paid vacation to the best beaches, I would probably give it someone else.I still got sun-burn tough, because of tennis. It looks like I wear a white t-shirt and shorts when I am naked :) Oh well.

Meditation: I spend at least 1 hour meditating everyday. It is going well. I feel like I am in a different dimension when I meditate. I love it! The only problem I have is finding a nice place to meditate. I meditate at home, but I also want to meditate in nature.

Music: Right now, I am organizing my music files. I downloaded all the albums of BZ and I am selecting the best ones! FUN!

Running: Last time I ran 2 miles in 18 minutes. This summer I will work hard to improve my speed.

Anime/Manga/Drama: I finished watching Nodame Cantabile again (Gyaboo-it is my 3-4 time!) Definitely, romantic commedies are my favorite!

Meditation

2010-07-23T10:29:00.002+03:00

I have started meditating using this website: http://meditation.org.au/ It has 42 free courses, exercises, meditation music, and lots of other stuff.

It is hard to express how much it helps me. That short meditation time in the mornings is my tresure. I am learning to love myself, know myself. Each exercise opens up my heart a bit more everyday. I love that peace and happiness.

I had always complained about being lonely... Now, I want to be alone. Because I feel like I have finally found something so precious in myself....my soul.

Want to Download Yaoi Anime? Here is a great website!

2010-07-16T15:45:00.003+03:00

http://mesmerisz.livejournal.com/50273.html

There are also tons of dramas to download too!
http://mesmerisz.livejournal.com/3570.html

*Kisses/Hugs to Mesmerisz*

Ginchou Kidan- Silver Butterfly

2010-07-14T10:51:00.000+03:00

A nice yaoi manga. It is hard to see such a cool UKE in mangas :)) You can download it from here or here.

Two good news about my work

2010-07-08T16:26:00.000+03:00

1. Student evaluations have been announced, I am the top instructor in the department again (for 3 consecutive semesters). But more importantly, my students' comments were so touching *sniff sniff*.

2. My article has been accepted to be published in a high-quality journal in the Education field.

My usual reaction for such news = flying over the clouds, big smile across my face, bouncing around....
My actual reaction was = "Oh good...where was I..." *continue working*

Hmm.. maybe I am becoming a very dull person. YIKES! I should do something to celebrate *force myself* XD

Nabari no Ou

2010-07-07T20:51:00.000+03:00

My 2-day anime-watching and laziness ended today. I finished both Kuroshitsuji and Nabari no Ou. I love the characters in both animes. But somehow, the endings are a bit......*sigh*

I love you Yoite!

Only The Ring Finger Knows

2010-07-06T08:09:00.000+03:00

This shonen-ai manga was Reizsha's suggestion. You may download it from here:. It warmed my heart, I thought about it for a quite a while after I finished reading.

Something gets more precious when it comes back to you after you gave it up for good...